Okay... I have a ton of stuff to post but #1) I'm lazy and #2) I don't really have time. So, this is just one entry that will grow and be updated bunches... with random crap... and some pictures. Y'know. That I promised a month ago.

Mary's [Thursday] was... hella tight =D haha... I don't even know how we spent those 16 hrs but I know only 3 of it was spent sleeping =P. We went bowling at Brunswick... which I didn't LOSE at =D In fact I have a picture proving that I was actually WINNING for TWO WHOLE FRAMES!!! haha... Damn, I owe you guys so many pictures. Sorry. I've got a whole lotta good quotes for yall too... here's a preview:

[setting: Mary's basement, near the TV, Alex clutching a notebook full of names of guys who we think are hot/cute]
Alex: WE NEED TO HAVE AT LEAST 200 BY THE END OF THIS!!!!
Everyone: ......
Alex: Here, I'll start looking at movies. [pulls out a random VHS tape: "Charlotte's Web"]
Bettina: You know that movie's animated, right..?
Alex: Hey... this rat's kinda cute.

Anyway, three hours of sleep but I'm still not tired. I went to bed round 6:30am and woke up round 9:30. And still goin strong. We went shopping... Express is having this HUUUUGE sale... haha. Today, I was reminded why I don't like trying shit on when I go shopping with boys. Anyway. I DID try on this REAAAALLLY perty dress ... that I might've gotten for Girls Choice.. if only I was going. LOL. Alright... I'm gonna get goin... but more updates and crap later.

blastin')) my friends over you... [new found glory]

//addendum

4-day weekend almost over... I have practice tomorrow, too =( Damnit I keep pulling muscles!!! !@*$&^... So, one more day before I'm back on the daily grind. Think I'll post pictures by then? Probably not. I'm thinkin a lot these days... I think it's unhealthy for me. To find out, just go bey0nd... Sigh. Life continues, huh?

I wish this weekend could've just lasted forever. So much fun stuff-- the sleepover, bowling, shopping, winter dance, chillin ... that's how life should be, huh? Doing stuff you like? Too bad it ain't like that. Oh well. Once again, I realize how much I love dancing... if the music is good and people are on the floor, why the fuck not? Also, I realize I can't dance to songs I don't know... and I can't take more than 15 min of techno without glowsticks. ARGH. I can't believe I cracked the ones I took from Franklin like 2 weeks ago... lol. Okaaay I'm done... more tomorrow, maybe.

FINALS WEEK!!!!

I LOVE THIS! Why is everyone complaining?? haha... I guess that was pretty mean. I'm sorry. But personally, I am loving this. Basically no school, and absolutely no homework for a week. Plus, four day weekend, only 3 days of practice, winter dance on Saturday... CMON!!!

I should really study, because I barely have. I just... don't. I know I should. I'm going to see what I can do for Bio (my only exam tomorrow) and if I bomb it, I'll know I need to study more. But for now... I'll just flip through my notes and crap like that. Since I left my book at school.

So, for those who want to stalk me (Maura!! haha jp):

Tue: Biology 9:50-11:20(kicked it's ass); Hawkettes 1:30-3:30(kicked my ass).
Wed: World Cultures 8:10-9:40 (>_<), English 9:50-11:20 (-_-'), Spanish 11:30-1:00 (^_^)
- out to lunch [at a "surprise" place] with sister =D
Thu: Math 9:50-11:20 (finals OVER!): Hawkettes 1:00-3:00 (not complete torture)
- Mary's, [bowling?], sleepover (rockstar =D)
Fri: no school =)
Sat: Hawkettes 9:00-12:00a; Winter Dance [7:00p- ?? ~_^]
Sun: Chinese school >_< 12:30a-4p
Mon: no school; Hawkettes 3:30-5:30

um, stolen from lucy, but it's kind of like franklin's? =T

<<[PeRsONaL]>>
[name]: Queen Scaliwag?
[birthday]: 11.8.88
[siblings]: Anita- 19 <3
[hair color]: dark dark dark dark dark chocolately brown.
[eye color]: also dark brown =D
[height]: 5'2.5 hell yea!
[been kissed]: nope
[been in love]: hard to say, in a fickle world..
[eaten an entire box of oreos]: hmm i THINK so... maybe someone ate like 5 and i ate the rest
[been on stage]: yea, i LOVE IT i'm so addicted to spotlights
[been dumped]: nope... but haven't dated much either, huh? lol
[gotten in a car accident]: err kind of... in taiwan, very minor
[dyed your hair]: NO! i shall not succumb to fads! haha (plus i love my hair color)
[ran around naked in front of people]: not sober... HAHA jp
[choked in front of people on my own spit or drink]: you have no idea. especially when elyse is talking.
[gone to school in your pajamas]: yeah.. pajama day all the way!.. or just comfy pants. i <3 boy pants! lol
[gotten a detention]: nope
[loved someone so much that it made you cry]: hmm... kind of. it happens at night when i'm yawning and susceptible to tears... then again... it has a lot to do with emotional stability, and we all know that i'm lacking of that sometimes =D

<<[tHiS & tHaT]>>
[Cold/hot]: cold... you can always bundle up more but when you've been practicing in the field house for 2 hours and it's a fucking sauna in there... not cool.
[Blue/red]: blue
[Rain/snow]: snoowww is so much prettier =)
[Give/receive]: i'd like to say give but to be honest i love receiving too =D
[Wool/cotton]: cotton!! you can barely find anything 100% cotton anymore... bastard synthesized fabrics...
[Rose/daisy]: daisies make me happy... roses are perty though. i'd go for daisies cuz they're more unique
[Private school/public school]: public
[Chocolate milk/plain milk]: chocolate... i cant stand milk though, period
[Celsius/Fahrenheit]: jo momma?
[Spring/fall]: spring!!! i LOVE spring... it makes me feel so much more alive
[History/science]: science
[Math/English]: english (but i'm better at math. blah.)
[Country/rock]: ROCK ON =D
[Coke/pepsi]: pepsi... but only until i become immune to its effects. and then i'll be back to root beer.
[Cherry coke/vanilla coke]: cherry... vanilla coke = coke-flavored vanilla >_<
[sprite/7up]: mm sprite remix... but i like 7up
[Sleep/eat]: DANCE =D


<<[oPpoSiTe SeX]>>
[Do you like someone right now]: mmm we'll see =)
[Do they know?]: i dunno... maybe?

<<[fRieNdS]>>
[Who do you see most often]: at school, probably maria; when i have free time, my girls =D; in general since my coach tortures us, probably the girls on my squad
[Who is your most annoying friend]: hahaha depends on what situation they're placed in. none of them are ANNOYING.. just annoyinger than the others LOL
[Which one do you wish you saw more often]: all my taf girls =( suite 109 <3 ; emily or elyse... though of course i have no classes with almost all my friends, so i wish i could see all of them
[Who do you email the most these days]: uh.. peter? i don't really email
[Whos the loudest]: hmm this used to be a given for anne, but i'd say olivia runs pretty close
[Whos the quitest]: definitely peter. especially after i turned off my AIM sounds =D
[Whos the shyest]: mm maybe maura?
[Who are you jealous of]: all of my friends have traits that everyone in the world should be jealous of... they are the most beautiful, strongest, most caring and generous people i know
[Who has the best room]: maura's! w/ all her pictures... and awesome peach pillow
[Who do you trust the most]: my closest friends
[Whos your best friend]: whatta crappy question
[Favorite friends of the opposite sex]: Javy, Tyson, and Pierre. HAHA i wish
[One you usually miss]: elyse or anne... it's hard being in the same classes for 8 years then being ripped apart =P

<<[WitHiN tHe LaSt 24 hOuRs]>>
[Had a serious talk]: yea, with anne
[Hugged someone]: most likely
[Missed someone]: yea
[Gotten along with your parents]: erm, kind of? got a "life is unfair" lecture from my dad yesterday. wtf?
[Fought with a friend]: no... not for the longest time
[Cried]: no... within 48 hours, yes
[Felt empty]: no... within 36 hours, yes

<<[dO yOu LiKe tO]>>
[Give hugs]: i love to
[Give back rubs]: hahaha sure... massage circles all the way
[Take walks in the rain]: so much fun
[Go to the beach]: me encanta! =P
[Watch tv]: hmm usually yeah
[Do homework]: ::gag::
[Stay up all night talking to friends]: what i live for =D
[Talk on the phone]: haha hell yea
[Go online]: yepp
[Do freaky things]: uh... as in?
[Work Out]: yepp

<<[wHiCh oNE oF uR fRieNdS]>>
[Is most likely to grow up to be a model]: probably caroline cuz she's already got an agent =P
[Have you known the longest]: yikes! maura or elyse, from preschool, but uh me and maura had a lapse, huh?
[Do you know most about]: anne or elyse

<<[HaVe yOu EVeR]>>
[Been to a concert]: yea, coco lee =D got her autograph .. it was crazy..
[Been out of state]: Manchester, what? HAHA yea well other places too.. lots of other places =P
[Gone skinny dipping]: no o_O
[Broken a bone]: yea... stress fracture in one of my lower vertebrae
[Cheated on a test]: nope
[Ran a marathon]: no =P i would if i COULD... but i know i'd die 1/4 the way
[Met a famous person]: Coco... and myself, of course.
[Bought something and then sold it]: like.. food.. probably
[Gotten drunk]: nope
[Stalked someone]: ... my friends can testify to that

<<[extras]>>
[What is your worst habit]: overanalyzing... manhating... making stupid jokes... stuff like that =D
[What really makes you mad]: people. >=( and the world
[Scariest moment]: i think all the scariest stuff happens in my dreams... i don't know.
[What is your earliest memory]: i don't know because i have very few early memories and my parents told me stories when i was little about what i did when i was younger... somehow these stories got mixed with the real memories i have. it's really weird.

<<[nOw]>>
[Where are you]: chillin at home =D
[Are you wearing any jewelry]: my teardrop necklace that i always wear
[When was the last time u showered]: yesterday morning... and in about 2 minutes, this morning =P
[What color pants do you have on right now]: green =D
[What song are you listening to right now]: ordinary day - vanessa carlton
[What is the last thing you said?]: umm i've been singing this morning? but last night i said goodnight to my sis..?
[What is your computer desk made out of]: wood and plasticish fake-wood looking stuff covering it
[What was the last thing you ate]: muffin =)
[What would you really be doing right now]: takin a shower?
[If you were a crayon, what color would you be]: jungle green!
[Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with]: family friends and the next boy that walks down the street... ::watches em line up:: HAHA jp =D

okay, i'm done with it

I'm sick of feeling so down on myself. You know what? Too fucking bad. This is how I am. These are my flaws. These are my strengths. Deal with them. If you don't like me, then... you do that.

These are the hurdles in my life. They are there to make me stronger, and with each hurdle, I become more and more capable of crossing the finish line. And I will find a way to get there... staying true to myself the entire time. Tomorrow is gonna be a crappy day, and Sunday, even worse. But I'm going to survive.

I heart my friends. To everyone who noticed.. anyone who cared enough to ask... thank you. Even when I think I can't talk to anyone about something, my friends press me and force it out of me, then make me feel better about it all. I literally would be lost without you guys.

So here we are, ladies and gentlemen. You have just witnessed an inner moral battle --otherwise known as a mood swing-- in blog form.

I hate caring. I hate that I care about this freaking spot. I hate that I care what other people think. I hate that I care about you. I hate that life matters to me.