Absolutely addicted to this song... so beautiful.

~*~*~

I've heard there was a secret chord
that David played, and it pleased the lord--
but you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this: the fourth, the fifth,
the minor fall, the major lift,
the baffled king composing hallelujah...

Your faith was strong but you needed proof,
you saw her bathing on the roof;
her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you.
She tied you to a kitchen chair,
she broke your throne, she cut your hair,
and from your lips she drew the hallelujah...

Maybe I've been here before,
I know this room, I've walked this floor;
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
but love is not a victory march,
it's a cold and it's a b ro k en hallelujah...

There was a time you'd let me know
what's real and going on below,
but now you never show it to me, do you?
Remember when I moved in you,
the holy dark was moving too
then every breath we drew was hallelujah...

Maybe there's a god above,
and all I ever learned from love
was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you.
It's not a cry you can hear at night,
it's not somebody who's seen the light,
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.

Hallelujah.... hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah.

~ rufus wainwright

i can't let go of summer...

Yeah I know it's October already....but I just don't want to accept it. I don't want to wear sweatshirts or sweaters to school (even though South is freezing enough to wear that throughout the year...). I don't want to see snow, hell, I don't even want to see my birthday yet. I just want summer. Warm weather. Clear skies.

Yesterday was absolutely gorgeous. In fact, I'll even take this kind of autumn weather for another month or so. Since we only have two seasons, I guess it's more of an extension of summer. But seriously.... bright blue sky yesterday. Pure as crystal. The trees around OCC are amazing. I don't want them to go away. I guess there's otherstuff to look forward to... my birthday, Thanksgiving break, getting my license, winter break, living life, etc. But I don't want to think about that! It's too far away! I just want to enjoy myself and relax while I can. It seems like everything that I wanted has either passed/left or is so far away/unobtainable. Like... peace of mind?

I just heard about someone whose boyfriend moved to Thailand. It was soooooo sad. Why does life do this kind of shit to people?

pix

Sick of people bothering me about it. And you'll continue bothering me, because I barely took any pictures. Oops!


girls n boys-- ::Jason and Bettina walk into Emily's house, an hour late:: .... ::Bettina runs to get into pic with 7 girls she doesn't know::


"How come it looks like there's more guys than girls?" ... "Because... there ARE..."


At the restaurant-- Bucca, at Yorktown. Sir Andrew Shen, looking mighty noble.


Crap. The only serious pic that me and Jason took together. And I look like crap. >_<


This one's better. And my earring was bugging me so I'm playing with it in about 4 different pictures. Which I'm not posting.


too much fun with the menus there. "Let's make origami!" Ahaha... our waiter, Jake, was feriggin awesome. By the end of the night, we were all best buddies. And he put Jason's menu boat up on the shelf with all the decorations.


Lizelle, Kara and me... yay a normal pic! That Kara took... because I'm not smart enough to do these things...


Oh and we left a thank you note to Jake. On the back of a menu. With menu crayons. Yay!


Way too amused by pretty stuff. But I loved the corsage... good thing we went to get it, Jason! haha Okay I'm done, no more pix... don't kill me.

psst...

mlb picks

Having had sufficient time and distractions to recover from the death of the 2004 Chicago Cubs, I have made my DREAM picks for this year's postseason (not logical, just dream):

NLDS:
LA Dodgers vs. St. Louis Cardinals- Cubs in 3 games. (Okay, actually, I'd like the Dodgers to sweep the Cards... yes, I understand they already lost today. But my DREAM PICKS...)
+ Matt Morris will give up 4 in the 1st inning
+ Scott Rolen will finally bust out his knee TOTALLY.
+ Hee Sop Choi, as an ex-Cub, will come thru and KICK MAJOR BIRDIE ASS.
Atlanta Braves vs. Houston Ass-trolls- Cubs in 3 games. (Sorry I couldn't help it... okay, Braves in 4. Houston can kiss it. That's RIGHT Allen... your precious stros are goin down. And Roger Clemens ain't got no homerun in him.) And basically, if the Cubs can't be in it, then NO ONE in our division can.

ALDS:
Boston Red Sox vs. Anaheim Angels- Sox in 4. Let's see how the rally monkey fairs against Keith Foulke.
Minnesota Twins vs. New York Satanspawn- Yanks in 5. So they can work for it, damnit. So they can use up their weakass starting rotation. I actually like the Twins, but if they win, the world won't be able to see this:

ALCS:
Boston Red Sox vs. New York DevilIncarnate- Sox in 7. I think it'd be illegal for this to happen any other way. Fights in game 3, 5, and 6. A Yankee fan will be found battered and unconscious outside of Fenway. The world will scream Hallelujah.

NLCS:
Atlanta Braves vs. LA Dodgers- Braves in 6. I like the Braves. With or without Javy... they're a pretty spiffy team. Because they deserve it, having proven their endurance even after losing half their team. Oh, and Gagne will blow a save, to add a little drama.

World Series:
Sox vs. Braves- Sox in 4. Because they deserve a break. And because damn right, it's better than yours.

the BEST HOMECOMING .. of my sophomore year!

Well, there's another one next week. And that will be spectacular... however.... I have no date. Yes ladies and gentleman, if you ever meet a Maine South boy, you can safely assume that he holds no appreciation for the beauty and excellence that IS bettina chang. Ahahaha.. but anyway.

Thank you very much to the great (and dashing) Jason Lee for a marvelous remarkable absolutely magical night. I hope I helped to break your "homecoming curse", especially because you totally slaughtered me at our game last night. Also thank you to Sir Andrew Shen for giving in to peer pressure and coming along, even though we tortured him by pretending that we weren't going after all. Thanks to Emily for taking a million and a half pictures at her house.... to Kara for being so nice and just absolutely hilarious... Lizelle for having so much chemistry with me... Giemar for threatening to explode the peppers onto us... Joe for being my fake date with my fake ID with a non-existent permission form. There were SO MANY PEOPLE and they split us up at dinner so I didn't get introduced to half of them! But they were all super nice.

I'M SO SAD I DIDN'T GET TO SAY BYE TO YOU GUYS! I don't really feel like recounting the night. But it was hilarious. And everything we did was ON PURPOSE. Yes, that counts forgetting flowers, tickets, ID, getting lost, running red lights, not ringing doorbells... I wish I had taken more pictures. But I didn't. So I'll just wait until someone else gets them up and I will steal accordingly =D

other crap

So to make up for it, I shall give a taste of summer:

Aahah what a great night... I MISS SUMMER! It's so cold now! I'm not ready for fall =( The "tattoo" on my arm says "PRIOR #22" on it... haha... back when he came off the DL [Remember the hope we held at that point?]. Remember that bruise I had on my arm from running into a wall? Yeah I drew the heart to cover it up. Hahaha. I'm cool now.

OMG MY CUBBIES. I seriously feel like something inside me has died. But it's kind of good that we were slowly edged out of the race, instead of just losing in the postseason like last year. It was a little less painful. But a lot more sad. It's crazy to think that the season's over. But it was a good year... we loved them, we hated them, we hoped we pined and we pained... I'm still proud. Back to back winning seasons-- one step at a time, right? And um, go Red Sox?

I'm getting my braces off tomorrow. =D Yeah that's RIGHT, no more calling ME metal mouth.