the return of the rant

I'm sure you all missed them.

I just realized that it really really irks me when people are negative. I'm sure that I'm negative sometimes too (my turn to be hypocritical) but I have a feeling that some people are way more negative than me. And I tend to be kidding when I'm negative... to be honest, I think of myself as a pretty positive person. Sure, I bitch a lot in my blogs, but that's only because it's so much easier to blog about annoying things. (Hence, this rant.) In reality I actually take a pretty optimistic look on things. Of course I'll always do the whole traditional be-humble thing... Anyway.. that's definitely a tangent, and I'm not trying to do a difference-between-humble-and-negative rant. This is just about negativity, and how goddamn-annoying-it-is! =D

So I just finished reading a couple entries in someone's blog, and I've got to admit that what the person said (let's call them Cornelius... just for the fun of it) really scares me. Not really "frightens" but it makes me wonder about Cornelius... how must his life be if he can truthfully write the things that he does. Now, the honesty of blogs is always in question, because people tend to alter their thoughts when they know the entire world could be reading. However, if what Cornelius writes is true, I am both afraid FOR him and afraid OF him. He holds this complete negative outlook on events of the past week or so, and it's just so sad to read about how badly he views herself. I guess I'm kind of blessed with a massive ego because I really feel bad for people who can't like themselves. And then you wonder what he must think of others if he can't even accept herself for who he is.

I think the worst part about his entries is his obsession with irrelevant things. I guess "irrelevant" isn't the best word. But I mean, stuff like popularity and how-long-you-go-out-every-night, and how hot the boys are... Okay, this fake name isn't working... Cornelius is actually a girl. Soo um Cornelius has this obsession with boys, and by reading her blog, you get the feeling that she will be happy as long as the boys are cute. lol.. maybe I should change her name... nah, that's okay. Girls can be named Cornelius.. if they really want to be. Anyway, I just spent an hour on the phone between writing the past 2 sentences and I'm about to pass out... I'm too tired to rant anymore (is it possible??) =D I'll catch yallz.. on the flip side.. [cuh]... hahahaha

taf pictures!! just like i promised!! -_-


Ahhhh TAF =)

The malicious brewing


and consumption of Manchester food...


The strange apparel that we don,


the inevitable crossdressing


using actual clothes


or LOTS of balloons...


the skits, involving "Mr. Deer"


and a snow-white >>bunny<< ??


Meeting lil pimps like Kevin...


and watching Julianna throw up ginger...


sOh priceless!


Um, though some things we can do without seeing...


Of course, there's small group! (XII baybee!!)


beating all the other small groups...


and Elliot being punished for being late to small group.


Swing choir was fun this year... especially for Eric and Ming


Apparently, Frank and Andrew wanted to be swing choir partners too, but that didn't work out. They found an alternative.


Now let's count how many pictures I have of people licking stuff (or other people)


Correction: licking, or molesting little kids. o_O


Now count how many of these licking pictures involve Jeremy.


And one more, for good measure.


Suite 109 babyyyy!!


No need to be THAT enthusiastic, Staci...


Kick it down a notch...


Must have been the soap!


Which way does this picture go??


More fun in the hallway


Breakfast at speaker session? Tsk tsk... Something to keep away the boredom, I guess.


Apparently, this was taken before speaker session... notice how non-asleep we are.


Night market was cooler... got to see Lil, FINALLY!!


TAF Night pix! You better come to Youth next year, Lil!!


Bettina: "If you do something stupid in this picture, I will beat you." James: "I'm sorry, I just look stupid naturally."


Me and Frank, my "roomie" =D


Me, Annie, Christine, Karen, and Emily... lookin beautiful. Obviously.


Me, Joe, Annie and um.. Joe. (And Tim's fingers in the background >=( )


How kind of you to show your face, Tim.


Annie, Karen, Staci and Lucy... sheksayy


Step and hands, Jon!! [I should consider putting this into swing choir next year.. HAHA]


Youth Staff Choir: Lyin in my bed, hear the clock tickin, think of you...


JH Staff had a crazy picture session... "Everyone switch places, GO GO GO!!"


The next morning, goodbyes... =(


Swing choir next year, yea yea??


I said bye to Dave.. even though I'd see him for the next 3 days straight.


Cuz there'd be that 40+ people TAF dinner at Mountain View...


And then chillin in New Chinatown Square afterwards...


And then that picture at Chikuan and Linn's salon, where the white people outside started taking pictures too.. >_< kinda freaky. Must've not seen so many Asians together at the same time =P. [Z has this picture... everyone bug him to get it =)]

TAF's over... but I will forever miss Manchester.. and the massive swarms of cows.

Words cannot described how confused I am right now. So I'll just leave it at that.

On another note: TAF depression hit hard this year... '03 all the way, kids. Next year: swing choir???<~~ Should I?? I need opinions!! My thoughts aren't connecting. Is it the depression or sleep deprivation? Possibly a combination. School's coming soon... it's the last thing I want to think about right now. Even though I'm screwed for HS. Some day I need to start caring about it. TAF pix are on my comp, but I'm too lazy to put them up so far. Ummm too lazy to keep going... IM me or something. Maybe I'll respond =D

=*( Countdown to TAF'04... 358 days