jello: reloaded

Okay, excuse me for the corny opener but it's 2 am and I've been up forrrrrr ::counts:: -- ::stops counting:: Um, I don't know. Anyway, the layout is kind of messed up right now but I'm tired and I've been working on this too long and it ain't gonna be perfect for quite a bit so deal with it... till tomorrow.

My sis is coming home tomorrow! Actually, today. In 2 hours. Guess it's time to go to bed =T bye =)

i have the weirdest feeling right now...

I don't know what it is-- I'm not tired. I'm not sore. I'm not pissed. I'm not sad. I'm not rushed. I don't want to kill anything (okay I always do but not very strongly right now...) What is it?? It's so weird... oh wait... I think I remember.. it's called... relaxed??? ("What, Bettina? You're relaxed? Never....") Really, I am!! In fact.. I think I had a ::gasp:: GOOD DAY!! (applause). Let's see... not a lot of homework today (just working on Sludge), I burned some cd's for people, I talked to my sister a little bit, I went to a band concert... Nothing in that list would require me to be upset. I'm amazed, really, I am!!

let's rewind...

Okay sorry I just had to comment on today because it was so surprisingly pleasant. However... yesterday was another story. I hate Wednesday dance class. It's 3 hours and it seems like a waste of time. However, I had to go yesterday because I've missed the last 6 weeks or so and I need to learn the dance before the recital (which is a week away-- ::gasp::) I got it down though... Anyway, so I had pointe but I wasn't wearing tights because usually I don't need them. But-- I got a new pair of pointe shoes and they were not broken in at all. So, to make it fast for yaz, I have a big hole on the side of each foot (actually it's a hole on the left side, the right one's blister hasn't popped.. yet). So it hurts. But not bad enough to ruin my not-bad day. Woohoo! =P

spinnin': one day -simple plan-

::dies::

I stand corrected. Our Michael Jackson dance this year is definitely hard. Very hard. Sure, last year's had mad footwork but this year is soooo tiring and the style is soooo hard!! Dear lord I think I just passed out for a couple seconds =P Ahhhhh we ran through it like 6 times in a row and I'm dyyyying!! The costumes are psycho too, I'ma sweat my ass off. And yes, you did need to hear that.

i'm just a kid, and life is a nightmare...

So true, so true! No, I'm not just saying that because I am obsessed with Simple Plan right now-- that's beside the point.

for once, i may be speechless

I keep babbling on about things that don't make sense, and I keep deleting them. There's so much going on right now. I need to do so many things but I don't know where to start! First of all I need to finish my math homework.. I'm trying to get a hold of Emily on the phone because her dog Sasha was put to sleep today... =( and well I guess there's a multitude of other things that have gone wrong today already and I feel so constrained and bottled up because I can't do anything about it until tomorrow!! Since last year I've tried to stop worrying about things that I couldn't help, but for something like this (as opposed to a project for school, for example) it's so much harder just to WAIT... and wait.. and wait... and AGH I'm going to burst!!

Okay so I guess I'm not speechless.. I'll write more tomorrow, maybe.